February 4, 2010

It seems as if everything is within a few steps of vanishing: my experience, my vacation, my life in Turkey. It feels like just yesterday I was in a rush to get back home. In an ongoing rush to pack my bags and fly back to the Los Angeles that is not any golder than I left it. I miss my job, my car, my things and not to mention my family. However, now things are becoming clearer in a different perspective. I am suprisingly dreading leaving my life here: my town, my school, the relationships I've built, oh and not to mention my family. Initially I did not think it was possible to have a family both at home and abroad. Now that I will be leaving them I feel like a rock falling above a spider's web. I am anticipating hittig rock bottom soon. I fnd myself torn between two homes, two places with many different values. I find myself more emotional and more attached than ever. This is such an emotional rollercoaster, but the ride is almost over I guess...